Monday, March 26, 2012

North And Boston


My mother
Was a statue on Boston Street

All of her movements away from Portland
Yanked back by bungee cords

To the wood paneled rooms
And the drunks and lunatics
In the bars
Spilling out onto the streets at three in the morning

This is life, we tell ourselves;

Continuing even if we die,

This is life

Moving on without us,

Building Wal-mart
On our graves

And leaving downtown to grow bars like cancer
Rancid breath and burning lungs

This is life

One forgotten bill at a time
One Jack and Coke at a time

Down the throats

Into the stomachs

Growing disease
And malice and bitter memories circling
Like vultures

We were never alive,
We tell our children

Don't stay in this town, we tell them

As we tie the bungee cords to their bedposts
Like our parents before us

Parting Company


I find myself far now

From the burning sheets of Indianapolis

Chasing AIDS in the alleyways of Stringtown

Far now

From the promise of another empty new beginning

Starting over with your pants dirty from a thousand driveways

Starting over with your jaw sore from eating mirror shards

Starting over with your phone in the freezer

You learn to forget your own name

In dark rooms where you want to be dead

And where the people are drunk

And some of them are dying

But there's always a morning and a bottle of cold medicine waiting

Starting over with eviction

Red letters on the door

GET OUT

And the mornings are white in December

In a minivan with a missing window

Walk Away


Walk away

Slowly

Shoes like rusted anchors
Throbbing in the snow

Eyes bleeding
Nocturnal memories

Trailing intestines

Walk away
In pain

Just walk away

Just go away

Teeth like vodka statues

In the silent cold hearts
Of strangers
Sleeping dead as tombs
And corpses retching
On the side of the road

Dying alone

Falling apart

Thrown away on forgotten nights